Fanny

Happy New Year!

2009-01-12T02:31:00.004+08:00

Ha.... Happy New year everyone!! I know it's been 11 days since new year start.. Oh well nvm la hor... Hehex... I finally change my blog skin.. Nice ma?? i like this blogskin because it's simple and nice... Hahax..

Reflections of 2008!!
▪ Didn't really study for A's- Damn it!!
▪ Get myself into troubles
▪ Nv try enough good food
▪ Often make my parents pissed off with me

Hahax.. That's all ba...

For now, my life is still quite ok ba.. waiting for my A lvl results... Finding a job.. Wat i know is, I've been pondering over things that will only make me hurt even more.. It's been 1yr plus, and i'm still stuck at the same point... I dun wan to lead this kind of life anymore.. It's affecting my mood every now and then...

Thank you friends for giving me such a wonderful 2008.. I love u guys.. Hahax.. Thank You for the durain puffs!! It was nice... =)

Signing off,
Fanny

2008-11-27T01:17:00.004+08:00

I screwed up all my paper!! but Exams are finally over.. should feel free ba.. But i nv feel this way leh.. i oso dunno y... This few days not in a very good mood.. For wat reason i not in good mood, i think only banana knows.. She too oso quite emo...

Everyone's patience got a limit.. And i feel that my limit has reached the max le... Are u trying to test how high is my patience?? Wat wrong have i done? That u muz treat me in such a way!!! I'm oso a human.. i have feelings de... Y muz u purposely make me angry?? Make me cry?? If by doing so, u'll feel happy then u've succeed.... Yes! I cried... now u happy? Can u dun make take me for granted... Chances are given for u to cherish not take for granted... It's difficult for u to do things for me when i request.. But It's easy for u to do things for Other PPL when they request... I tried to do watever u request, wat do u still wan from me?

Can u pls think and feel from my point of view?

30 nov-- 1000days...

Wat a "happy" birthday...

2008-11-10T01:09:00.005+08:00

Wat a "happy" birthday...

HI!!! I'm back.. It's been 9 days since my Birthday.... hehe.. I'm still thinking about lots of things on my b'day... And i'm in the mid of my A's.. Left with 4 more papers... Gogogo.... Will study hard de... Hehex..

I think now only Anna would know how i feel... i told her alot of things... And she's always there to listen to me.. Thanks gal...

Actually gal, i'm tired of going on like that... Waiting... I'm scare that the history will repeat.. I'm not sure wat i'll do but I jolly well know that if it does repeat.. i can't take the blow... Sometimes, all i hope was a shoulder to rest on... Juz that simple... Going through this A lvl period isn't a easy time for me.. but i still had to go through... All i hope now is all the sweet times i had was not juz pity and sympathy but true feeling...

"说好的幸福呢?"

*Gal, wat should i do? initiate? Or a farewell?

That's all.. Bye..

2008-07-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

As days goes, i learn... I learn to be contented with wat i have... But sometimes i really hope i have more... Once my fren said" Once a relationship cracked, it can nv go back to wat it used to be.." I was thinking is it true?? i dun believe.. I wanna give my best to revive.. But it's also a yr.. I'm silly, isn't it... I dunno wat to do but juz did wat my feelings say... Do u know that once in fall in love with this person, u wanna care for this person, protect this person, wanna spent ur time with this person, be there for this person... And no matter how much u did for this person, u juz feel that it is not enough... U wanna do more... I thought through it and it somehow sounds true... Hahax...

Heard before "so near yet so far?" I'm feeling this way... I still have the fear... Fear of the ringing of handphone... I'm really scare.. Always wonder who's that.. Then i said to myself , "Nth nth... No worries... Believe in urself.. Believe..." That day i did something that makes me really feel very very xing fu, I fetch him after work... Then we went to have dinner at subway... Then i watched him eat his sandwich... He's jus like a kid...

Yup.. I'm stubborn... I dunno y.... Maybe that's juz my character... There's a lot i wanna ask.. wanna know.. But didn't have the courage to ask.. Cause i know once i pop out these questions, the happiness will be gone... gone... Ha... suddenly so emotional hor.. After writing it down, i felt that a little better...

*应该怎麼相信一段有裂痕的感情吗??

2008-06-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

It's been about 1 month since i last updated my blog.. A lot of things happened in this month... But most of it are sad.. Wat to do?? This is life.. I didn't study at all for my exams... Wat a letdown!! I know... I know... Wish all the best for my studies ba!!

2 yrs of happiness and sorrows... My heart had already been pounded to powder... The last step left is to put it into water then stir and it'll disappear... Things are like drifting away... Like no turning back.. My energy are draining out.. Left with not much... 2 more months to 1 yr.. Can things still be saved?? I'm starting to doubt.. Or should i say, I might know the ans-I'm not the one u wanna take care of.. Can i at least know wat is going on in ur heart? I feel like things are been taken for granted.. I'm giving my best.. Really my very best liao... Are u??

I'm such a stoopid dumbo...

Bye...

2008-05-28T22:47:00.004+08:00

Thank you so much for letting me know who am i in ur heart.. Thank you for letting me knoe u'll NOT be by me anymore... Guess u juz really love her.. And i'm juz out of my wits to do anything to make u feel better.. I've changed again.. I'm really drifting further and further from the past me... Is my effort gonna be appreciate in any ways?? Or things are juz gonna be taken for granted??

U're not tired but i am.. I've given 1oo% of my effort.. My effort is not appreciated.. Not even little was appreciated..

2008-06-01T00:43:00.003+08:00

One good news.. I got champion for the little amazing race i went.. It was so fun la.. I love my team man.. hahax.. my team got Anna(Banana), Syen Kai(Malaysian), Jun Bin(Bun Bun) and me...We got some ideas that we used.. Hmm.. that was quite evil... Oh well... We enjoyed!! Sorry, Tian Shui, For not being able to make it for ur concert...

I can no longer treat him like wat i used to treat him... paitance.. nice... calm.. Cool headed... And his attitude towards me is different from the past.. Am i only remembered when i'm needed?? We quarrel every now and then.. How long can we still bear with it?? Wat am i gonna do?? We got communication problem.. Or I'm having problem?? I get affected every now and then.. I tried to control but things juz went out of hand when i can't take it.. Those expectations are driving me nuts.. I oso feel that i let my friends ad family down.. Sorry!!

Continue or Discontinue??
Am i up to that expectation of everyone??

2008-05-14T22:44:00.003+08:00

戀愛你會付出多少？

你有53分(分數為53-71)
　　你談戀愛誠懇而又真心，但可能你不擅於表達，所以你的心意往往未能令人領會。

The above is my results.. I guess it is somehow correct...

* Does effort really pay off??*

2008-05-07T23:13:00.003+08:00

The last post...

I miss the past me... Now i realise the more i care i more weak i get.. The cries won't earn back anything.. It's useless, worthless.. That's y he won't care.. Sometimes i really hope i could take a long long long break... or juz sleep as long as i wan..

I'm nothing but a substitute... I'm the naive one not her... there's nothing much i wanna say le... Everything will be inside a small little room in my heart.. 我的心好痛... 好痛... 好痛...

Is this love gonna have a ending?? A turn-back??

2008-05-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

Anna.. Thank you for always listening to my cries.. I'm still in the stoopid situation.. Today is worse... I did Test for her!! i can't believe i actually did that... i already has nothing to say liao... I lose faith in guys.. in love.. in everything.. After a "talk" with him last night, it makes me feel like i'm a sinner.. Wat has ur decision got to do with me when u fall for other ppl?

I'm like the Kate in the movie- Over Her Dead Body- My mission is done.. And i'll go like wat Kate did... I'm done waiting... So wat i waited for so long?? I'm juz a appetizer, a side dish... whom will nv get the attention and notice.. I tried to revive this relationship but nothing works.. I've no energy to carry on staying.. Do u have any idea how torturing it is?? How pain it is?? Dun think u know.. All past details is not important anymore, wat important is ur heart has another person.. And my decision is made based on ur actions.. Bye...

All i wish for is a guy who truely loves me and understand me... And make me feel that love is not torturing... Juz so simple...

~Crying Soul~

2008-05-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

Happy Labour Day To All!!!!

Today i went out with my gang.. not the animal gang but the other one.. hahax.. I had lots of fun.. I think my pool skills is improving... And i got free dinner.. Wahaha.. After pool, we had dinner and chilled out at Northpoint Starbucks.. They were chatting, i was playing with my hp game all along.. Hmm... that sounds bad..

Not really playing but think of alot of things... I'm stress out by the fact that i'm taking the A's which didn't come to my mind b4.. And stressed out by the fact that i'm not getting anything in return about the things i've done so far.. I'm not pining to get any benefits but juz a little ans to let me know whether am i on the right path... I'm like walking on an endless path.. I dunno have i walk to the end or am i half way done... or I'm at the same spot.. Now i'm asking all the qns and answering them all myself...

~~ Intangible Wounds~~

2008-04-30T11:07:00.019+08:00

Hi.. I'm back for some posting.. Ytd o suay, kana bee sting then my hand swollen like pig hand like that... hahax.. Then got 2 days of MC.. Today got some pics to post and every pic got my thinking behind it.. Started 0425 and ended 0915.. Here it goes........

27/28 March 2006

This is the 1st Camp Feast I went and got to know him. And that's oso the first time we got to talk to each other offically. I remembered we wee teased by the rest for carryig the same phone. This is the photo we took in the van on the last day of the camp while we were returning the pillow cases and blankets... We had so much fun.. =) Hope things can go back to the past but this is impossible. Is there such thing as lasting relationship in our generation?? He has been part of my life for that period of time and in my memories,, will he continue to be part of my life and give me more memories??

~ Purest Love ~

I think it was 16 April 2006.. that day i juz got back from Batam.. then went to watch movie with him...
Regarding this relationship, I dunno whether to hope for any more hope.. His heart is somewhere else.. My heart hurts.. If the guys really loves u, he'll woo u back.. I feel like it is a fu yan.. i had no more tolerance to smile like I'm happy.. To stay and look at u hoping for that dream of urs.. I'm not that understanding...

Mind Cafe at Clarke Quay

That day, we went mind cafe with Xin Ren and gang, we had lots or fun. That day, i wanted him to wear a black colour shirt because i had a motive.. hehex.. so that we looks likes we are wearing a couple outfit.. =) And that anklet necklace was lost somehow..

Happy times always passes so fast... <3

Sakae Sushi at Suntec

The table was full of food. Hahax.. I was happy working at the chocolate shop casue whenever he is free, he would come and find me. I was happy till i didn't know wat to say but a "Thank You" and "Love Ya". Although Kenny,Xin Ren they all came but it can't be compared.. I remembered he fetch me to and after work and he oso brought me to see the outer design of vivo.. The high speeding of his bike chilled me cause it was very cold at night. I was nc scared cause he's beside me.. Always looks at his back and i'll smiled.. wanted to hug him so much but didn't have the courage and scared that he'll be uncomfortable. In the end, I juz sat behind him looking at the night scenery and his backview..

AKE 2007

We were having a Ncc event then.. Rember that night, we were at changi Yacht Club for a drink with my gand of animals friend and with some NSF officer, huang. Nicholas... Stoopid cat drink till he wanna vomit.. And he didn't wana me to drink so much so he help me drink some.. They played pool and i was fooling around at the playground.. We had a nice chat and the sea was clam and cold.. Since the night was so beautiful, of cuz muz take photo la.. so i asked to take one.. hahx.. So bad of me.. But didn't expext this to be our last photo as a couple.. That fat tummy of his and chuby cheek.. And his nonsense saying..
~ Does wishing to the stars make ur wishes come true? ~

What's the use of quarreling when we didn't solve the problem ultimately?? Can u tell me wat i should do??

** GoodBye**

2008-04-21T21:04:00.006+08:00

This a very nice song by jay chou.. listen carefully cause u may not hear the meaning when u listen for the first time.. hehex.. This song talks about what i have been doing for the past 7 months.. Silly huh?? And the answer i got was a "might"... I dunno wat to say.. But my mood juz wasn't there... And my temper is getting from back to worse... The fear of breaking down and get stab is always there... I think it's time to have a deadline to this- o425 -

<<回到过去>>
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影
失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

*想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

repeat *

想回到过去
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
失去平衡慢慢下沉
你的身影
又回到过去

This is the end of the lyrics.. so hope u all enjoyed the song!!

I'm disappointed... Somethings when u know le, it makes u feel worse.. And that someone is whom u trust.. Y muz u break the trust again and again?? Am i that easy to cheat?? Wat are friends for?? Not gonna trust so easily anymore..

*BOOF*

2008-04-18T19:12:00.003+08:00

This is the song that i'm taking about.. And the meaning of the song, u should get it ba.. Still got some points i'm gonna repeat myself.. I cried too much.. i'm tired le.. tired of having to fight.. that love is not gonna come back.. i have no confidence that i can win.. or no matter how i fight oso won't win.. it's being 7 months, i can no longer take the pain... I can't accept someone whose heart is having another gal.. That's my final... No worries.. i'm not jealous... =)

假希望

爱那么甜每一天
欢乐的心依靠着你的肩那一天
才明白这是假希望
*爱那么痛那么冻
遣憾的心无奈的感觉提醒我
才明白这么假希望
不要给我假希望
不要给我一个期待
是我还在守总不能忘
牵着我的心
不要给我假希望
不要给我一个期待
是离别时后终于全遣忘
新的希望

不要给我假希望
不要给我一个期待
是我还在守总不能忘
牵着我的心
不要给我假希望
不要给我一个期待
是离别时后终于全遣忘
新的希望

你爱我还是他

你爱我还是他
是不是真的他要比我好
你为谁在挣扎
爱我还是他
就说出你想说的真心话
你到底要跟我还是他
你爱我还是他
这是不是命运对我的惩罚
爱你也没办法
恨你也没办法
陷在这个漩涡只想挣脱它
拉住你的手
却让我也被拖下
你的眉眼说
你不渴望我拥抱
每当爱变成了煎熬
你就开始要逃
你爱我还是他
是不是我可以做他的好
你不再挣扎
爱我还是他
我宁愿听到残忍的回答
也不要再被耍
你爱我还是他
我为你找了一百个理由
我就是那么傻
爱我还是他
是否沉默代替你的回答
我应该明白吗
爱我是他噢
你都已看不到我们的好
我还会心牵挂
你爱我还是他
是否沉默就是你的回答
我们都别挣扎
去爱他

Disappearing!!

2008-04-12T00:27:00.003+08:00

WAT'S GOING ON...
This may be my last post b4 i restrict this blog.. This week, there's too much things going on.. First 3 days of the week nv go school then ended up creating so many problem.. And my stomach flu came back!! This time it nv seems to go away.. Tues and Wed have quarrels.. Thursday nth.. I got back my Pw results liao.. I only got a ''C''.. Hai.. Nvm la.. My life always go the opposite way of my wish.. Maybe i didn;'t work hard enough.. Studies stress!! pressure!! MKE my last event until A lvl finish?? Most likely.. So Bye NCC folks!!

FAMILY
U all wat Family means?? FAMILY = Father and Mother I Love You.. Sorry i disappoint u both again and again..

MYSELF...
No more cheerful and full of crap.. Now I'm a bad wicked cunning gal who destroy ppl's friendship and tarnish other's reputation.. I'm negative person.. i felt in debt to my fren.. I dunno wat to do.. Feel so shameful to face them... Didn't know how to approach them.. Until now, i realised that i have to face the fact... If i dun, i know i'm gonna get hurt more than i'll ever know.. Lose confidence, interest, faith in everything.. No counsellings, pls!! The feeling of being betrayed is never forgettable... Those fake smiles, fake laughters of mine are juz so disgusting... EEKKKK!!

GALFRENS...
I'm sorry that i cause so much troubles to u 2.. And ended up u lose someone that u love and dote on.. I dunno wat to say but sorry.. really sorry..

LASTLY U...
The days that we had, are all memories, the happy-the tears-the angry-the surprises, in my mind.. They will remain there always.. Thank you for everything.. "In love, the sweetness and bitterness can't be bought by money" I experience that.. Thank you for treating me so good.. I'm not worth u treating me so good.. ok?? But still i can't forget the other side of ur heart.. If u are waiting for me to change( Dun think u r ), tell u.. Find the other gal, maybe not her but others.. Suan le ba.. Dun wait dun pin hope.. At this present time, i still find hard to accept u as fren.. Give me some time ba.. Someday, i'll recover... "Wan wan, jie jie will miss u de!!" hehex.. Remember this 2 dates is enough, 0425 and 0915..

*Nights*

2008-04-06T12:32:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. This few days i was slacking like nobody's biz.. Didn't do hw.. I think teacher oso sian liao.. hahx.. Had Frisbee trg on Thursday and friday.. Had disappointment... But well i think is my fault for not concentrating.. hahx.. u guys will think that i still got the cheek to say it.. i admit it.. Sometimes i get scolding and i was damn pissed off!! ok?? But a while later, i cool down.. And i still love u guys from my frisbee team!! I LOVE MY FRISBEE TEAM!! hehex.. Let's train hard..

This few days, i discover something.. When one's words doesn't tally with one's action, it's = to Zero Assurance.. And it's really heart wrenching.. No matter how much glue is used, it's useless... Once broken, there's always a crack there.. I agree to wat my fren say... There is always a phobia there.. Bernadette told me: " Wat's the use of having one's person but not one's heart?" I lose the battle.. It has been 7 months since i lose the battle of building confidence..

Bid Goodbye..

2008-03-19T23:17:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone.. Cip was nearly screwed up.. I think basically i screwed up my life.. Dunno wat the hell am i doing.. Dun feel right but still continue to do.. So much unspoken words in me.. Is it wrong to follow my heart??

My Horoscope:

SCORPIO WOMAN

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she upset, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it.

If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no 'fond of', or 'like' for her. Love has no 'may be', or 'perhaps'. If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know someScorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being 'Poor'. She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a
feeling of being a 'Nobody'.

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

Bye Bye

2008-03-10T01:31:00.003+08:00

Today went movie with 4e3 frens- Faizal, Ow, Rick, Luqman, Haleem, in the noon... We watched 10,000BC.. It was quite err ok la.. hehex.. then later in the evening went IT fair at suntec with a batch of frens- Lim, Faizal, Clarence, Eugene, Shuman, Zhen Long, Derek, JC.. Then we saw Ah Huang!! He's so fair now la and a bit fatter.. Prefer him to be tanned and fit.. look more handsome.. Hahax.. We had fun... Heard stories and we keep suaning Zhen long.. hahax.. Next time i see Derek, i'm gonna disturb him and wack him.. I pulled his ear until his ear is red.. =P Too bad lor.. Who ask him to disturb me..

Err... i oso dunno wat to say le.. juz got back my A lvl H1 result.. It was a bad pass.. Now i'll doubting my ability to pass the A lvl.. or even do any other things.. I trust myself.. but it's juz that sometimes i give in to fate.. This holiday, i got lots to catch up with my schoolwork.. But somethings is juz bothering me.. I can't get that out of my stoopid brain.. I'm paranoid, i admit..

There's a lot of things going through my mind.. stoopid things.. Making assumptions that may be true and not true.. but somehow i believe it is true.. can't be helped.. Sorry... =D
Sometimes it's juz so hard to deceive myself casue i dun wan to do that.. I live in this cruel reality whom will not pity nor sympathy me..

Be safe and healthy...

2008-03-02T15:03:00.006+08:00

Hi everyone.. i'm back again... First thing, my common test result is like shit.. hahax.. this yr yr 3 liao.. yet i still got this kind of bad result.. A.. i passed 2 failed 2.. pass oso is a juz pass.. then that day, i had a bet with my frens... I'll pass all H2 subject and GP see first.. If i dun pass my name let then call Nie Fen Tay.. they all so on sia.. Hai.. really got to work hard liao...

Ytd, sat we the frisbee team plus Sk, Bun bun, sanjoy and chun chen went for the frisbee com... We all had fun... But i got hit at my butt.. so pain sia.. And there's alot of hot guys there.. hahax.. bernadette, and kim was droolling.. And i got a piggyback!! wahaha... After the com, we went vivo for sanjoy's birthday celebraton.. It was fun lor.. we had steamboat.. the ma la soup really make my tongue numb.. then sk teach me to put the cold hot-dog in my mouth.. it somehow works.. hahax.. then everyone went home at 10plus...

Always staying behind to be by ur side.. but this can't go on forever.. I dislike this "hanging on the fence" feeling.. I dun need any amendments.. If u meet a good her, grab her and dun let her go.. Cherish her and protect her..ok?? Lastly, i came to a decision.. We should juz remain as frenz..

Take Care

2008-02-24T23:17:00.001+08:00

还能做什么你已经不爱我, 没什么需要被原谅- 你知道我总是能够假装不难过

2008-02-19T00:15:00.001+08:00

What TAY FEN NIE Means You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

Scorpio - Your Love Profile Your positive traits:
You're red hot passion makes anyone you date feel extremely wanted
Loyalty, to the point of doing anything to protect your lover
You are mysterious and charismatic - and you easily draw people in

Your negative traits:
You tend to be paranoid and think that the worst is going on with your lover
You turn cold and mean at the first sign of conflict in relationship
You sometimes become obsessed with dates - so much so that you develop jealousy early on

Your ideal partner:
Someone who will take the time to win you over. Not an easy task!
Is able to keep up with your carnal appetite... lots of stamina needed.
Reassures you of their love and loyalty on a daily basis.

Your dating style:
Intense. You prefer to stay in with take out and conversation - so that no one else is distracting you and your date.

Your seduction style:
Hot. New partners have trouble believing that your libido is for real.
You have incredible sexual intuition - you always know what your lover craves
A bit bossy. You know what you want, and you certainly aren't afraid to ask for it.

Tips for the future:
Don't be so secretive with your love - they want you the way you are
Let go of your jealousy. Your partner has chosen *you*
Spend more time alone, doing things you love. It will help you be less obsessive.

Best color to attract mate: Dark red
Best day for a date: Tuesday

Tots flow through my mind... I'll go crazy if things continue to be like that...

2008-01-31T19:46:00.000+08:00

Ha.. back again.. Today run the stoopid 2.4km despite being sick... Onli get a B... hahax.. That wasn't my best performance... Now i'm juz plain lazy la.. can't really be bothered about my hw and stuff.. still in dunno watever mood is that... Ncc got events coming up.. gonna join wor.. hehex.. And those memories...

I'm still waiting.. waiting for something or is it an answer... My fren asked" Do u think it is worth?" I actually replied "i dunno"... Then i tot... Wat is trust?? can it be earned back?? The feeling toward me is a habit or love or is it a responsibility?? I destroyed the trust castle and now its onli left with shattered bricks... i tried to bulid it... But the more i does it, i feel ....... I dun dare to interpret the actions... Cause i scare it is juz illusion...

Ironically, i onli understand when things happen... But now the situation is a something that i nv tot of and juz left me blank...

*Will u miss me if i'm gone??*
*0425* & *0915*

2008-01-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to everyone... Now is 2008... Another yr past.. fast rite?? My school oso starts le.. This yr is my final yr le.. I'll work hard.. Mug Mug Mug... i wasted my 2 months of holiday thinking of something that cannot be turn back...

Dunno since when i started to hate myself even more... i really dun like the present me... I hate the Fanny that can take up but can't put down... Hate the Fanny that is escaping from the reality... Hate the Fanny that brought trouble to others... Hate the Fanny who mess up ppl's life... Hate the Fanny who is so fake... I tot i can put down but i'm feeling terrible inside... My brain is telling me to forget about going back, it is not worth... but my heart is teling me another thing... I did tried to bring back the laughter that i posses... but the laughter i had now seems to be so fake... so fake... I asked myself alot of questions... Y Y Y??? No answer...

I juz wan myself back...

Take care of urself... I'll no longer be by u... I give my blessings...

*Poof*

2007-12-23T01:42:00.000+08:00

After one whole day of BBQ, so tired.. reached home at 11am then sleep all the way till 6pm.. hahax.. so pig rite..

While waiting to return the bike, i sat at the beach.. A lot of thing went through my mind.. Including wat birdnest told me.. i controlled my tears.. After reading blog, i know muz let go.. You are letting go... i know... Dun cry anymore.. once everything is over, everything else will be ok.. The days are numbered... Maybe someday, we'll meet somewhere in the street... Sorry for the empty promises and my wrongdoings...

Everyone is telling me the same thing.. asking the same qns.. Y?? Please.. The more u all ask the more i feel like i'm a idiot.. A stoopid fool.. I really feel like going somewhere far..

--> Grow like the tree... always moving upwards <--

Bye Bye

2007-12-10T12:35:00.000+08:00

I'll be going later le... Somehow i'm not excited.. Last night i chatted with him but i was disappointed... Dun worry about ur present.. I'll get it for u de.. Nvm.. U'll nv understand neither know how i feel... i juz juz... BYe bye la..

I wan to go into hiding... this is the last time..